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Sacha Guitry once said, "You can pretend to be serious, but you can't pretend to be witty." Oh yes, I'm the great pretender.
(pilot episode: 20 January 2004)

Monday, July 16, 2007

When It Rains

It gets really wet.

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All my life no one has ever courted me or really pursued me in a romantic way. So for the longest time I only had me to tell myself that I’m a wonderful guy. It feels different when someone else tells me that.

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The last time someone sincerely told me something of a similar sentiment was three years ago. Now I’m getting it from two different guys, and a third one looks like he’s seriously going to enter into the fray. Plus there are two others whom I suspect will want to if only they’re not attached right now.

In the words of Depeche Mode: I don’t want to start any blasphemous rumors but I think that God’s got a sick sense of humor. And when I die, I expect to find Him laughing. Dying is easy, comedy is hard; I like it hard. I suspect when I’m done with the easy part, I’d find Him playing jokes on me even in the afterlife.

Sigh.

Be careful what you stopped wishing for, you just might get more than you bargained for.

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To make matters worse: there’s this guy who’s really my type, cute Chinese chinito, smart and creative. I met him early this year and we’ve been in touch on-and-off all this time. I swear it’s like we live parallel lives: he’s also into advertising, albeit in art while I’m in copy; he’s about my height; we share the same zodiac sign; we love the same kinds of movies and TV shows; we have a better-than-average grasp of the English language; and we also looove food—just yesterday he told me he was craving for a donut just as I was biting into one. Of course there are also some snags: we’re both top (not that big a snag, but a snag nonetheless) and we’ve not met each other in person. And he’s in Indonesia. And he’s leaving for Germany within the year. For good. Now that’s a gigantic snag.

Yesterday while we were chatting over YM, he was bemoaning the fact that he did not believe in long-distance relationships (an attitude I also share with him). That night before going to sleep I thought that meeting him seemed like another cosmic taunt: “Nyah! Nyah! Nya-nya-nyah! You’re two peas in a pod who cannot be together!” But I also realized that I have a choice: I can either think of it as an unhappy case of right-guy-but-wrong-country-and-wrong-timing, or I can think of it as an ain’t-I-lucky-I-met-someone-like-you-even-if-only-online kind of situation. And I choose the latter.

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The rainy season is now here. Halleluiah. Careful now, it’s slippery when wet.

8 comments:

gibbs cadiz said...

five possible admirers?! sabi nga ni migs, hmpft! :) asan na nga ang gunting ni mother ricky at maputol yang super-long hair mong nasa gitna ang split ends, wahehe. :)

joelmcvie said...

GIBBS: Not "possible" because they already expressed their admiration.

But, but, BUT!

Five admirers only sounds good on paper. It only sounds good when you think you have no admirer.

As I've pointed out, two are already taken, so scratch them out. And the one guy who seriously wants to join in is problematic (long story) so I'm the one not taking him seriously.

Heniwey, this is a temporary state. I'm sure this 5-way state will end within the next few days.

migs, the manila gay guy said...

Hu-well, hu-well, hu-well!

Sa wakas, kumerengkeng na rin our ate McVie! LOL! Go for gold, McVie! This is the essence of being single - collect then select! ;)

Anonymous said...

Way to go Joel. Is the guy from 3 years ago Kervs? c",)

It's Raining Men, Joeluiaaa!!!

Randy

cant_u_read said...

"I can either think of it as an unhappy case of right-guy-but-wrong-country-and-wrong-timing, or I can think of it as an ain’t-I-lucky-I-met-someone-like-you-even-if-only-online kind of situation. And I choose the latter."

----that's the spirit, joel! panalo ka dyan! how very desiderata-ish!

"Heniwey, this is a temporary state. I'm sure this 5-way state will end within the next few days. "

----weno if it ends? for some people, this temporary state never even begins.

"Of course there are also some snags: we’re both top"

----ay madali lang yan. tawagan nyo ko pag bored na kayo at kailangan nyo ng iilalim! hehehe! ang karnal!

joelmcvie said...

RYE: AHAHAHA! Yan ata ang ating word-for-the-week: karnal! :-)

cant_u_read said...

hmph! di ka man lang nag-comment re: pagtawag sa kin. :-(

humanda ka sa podcast! charing!

carnnally yours,
ryeness

joelmcvie said...

RYE: Mahirap yata ang tumawag ng tulong na manggagaling pa ng HK, noh. Overseas carnal workers, o OCWs. ;-)