KISS Me

He first contacted me through G4M. His profile said single and 26 years old. He was cute, Chinese and in Cambodia, but he had YM and a webcam. He found me attractive; he was into older Filipino men. I went gaga over his singkit eyes, kissable lips and a skinny Chinese body type that I like.

I was surprised by how fast things went. It started with both of us flirting. We had webcam sex twice. He revealed he had a Filipino boyfriend who was living in Cambodia; it didn’t bother me at first. Then the chat became more affectionate. Pretty soon we were moving from “like” to “love” and saying “mahal” and “irog ko”. He even cried when he thought I didn’t understand the extent of his feelings for me. I was just probing what he meant when he said that his feelings for me were “like for a boyfriend, only with no label”. All of this happened in a span of a week.

Despite his real status, I wanted him. I was ready to help him look for a job here. I was even already thinking of looking for jobs in Cambodia online.

He told me he was coming over here for a visit. He promised he’d go with me on a weekend getaway to Tagaytay or Baguio. But when he hemmed and hawed later on, I sulked. In turn he moped. My self-preservation kicked in and I pulled back.

It’s difficult to maintain a long-distance relationship. But to be a long-distance mistress is more than difficult. It’s idiotic.

So now when he comes over for a visit we’ll just have a friendly fuck and a KISS—Keep It Simple, Stupid.