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Sacha Guitry once said, "You can pretend to be serious, but you can't pretend to be witty." Oh yes, I'm the great pretender.
(pilot episode: 20 January 2004)

Saturday, August 18, 2007

KISS Me

He first contacted me through G4M. His profile said single and 26 years old. He was cute, Chinese and in Cambodia, but he had YM and a webcam. He found me attractive; he was into older Filipino men. I went gaga over his singkit eyes, kissable lips and a skinny Chinese body type that I like.

I was surprised by how fast things went. It started with both of us flirting. We had webcam sex twice. He revealed he had a Filipino boyfriend who was living in Cambodia; it didn’t bother me at first. Then the chat became more affectionate. Pretty soon we were moving from “like” to “love” and saying “mahal” and “irog ko”. He even cried when he thought I didn’t understand the extent of his feelings for me. I was just probing what he meant when he said that his feelings for me were “like for a boyfriend, only with no label”. All of this happened in a span of a week.

Despite his real status, I wanted him. I was ready to help him look for a job here. I was even already thinking of looking for jobs in Cambodia online.

He told me he was coming over here for a visit. He promised he’d go with me on a weekend getaway to Tagaytay or Baguio. But when he hemmed and hawed later on, I sulked. In turn he moped. My self-preservation kicked in and I pulled back.

It’s difficult to maintain a long-distance relationship. But to be a long-distance mistress is more than difficult. It’s idiotic.

So now when he comes over for a visit we’ll just have a friendly fuck and a KISS—Keep It Simple, Stupid.

10 comments:

Tony said...

Life is like that. Love is love, and sometimes we expect too much out of it.

As I told my friend who was in the same predicament before. Life's relationships is hard enough without circumstances getting in the way. Wrong Place at the wrong time, its a sad reality.

Anonymous said...

joel, i have a feeling i know this guy and i knew his pinoy bf. yes, the guy is cute. chinese cambodian. his bf happens to be a good friend of mine - albert

gorjess said...

same thing happen to me.. i have chatted with an italian guy that is supposed to have a vacation in koh samui. we chatted for a few days and next thing he knew he was changing his vacation plan from koh samui to manila. he just left a few days ago. i hope you and your cambodian cutie will meet each other too.

joelmcvie said...

ALBERT: Mabuti ka pa, na you have a feeling that you know this guy. Eh ako nga, I don't even know if I know you. Sino'ng Albert ka ba? :-)

John Halcyon von Rothschild said...

Been there. Done that. Get out now! Someone always gets hurt in those types of relationships. Long distance just doesn't work. No amount of cybersex and phonesex can ever replace a real kiss and the feeling of being with the one you love. That sounded really sappy, especially coming from me!

Anonymous said...

Hello! Naku I've been to this type of relationship. Please give us some update. I am very eager and excited to hear the next step of this relationship. Good luck!

Anonymous said...

Hello! naku nakaka excite naman ang love story nyo. Please post the update of the most recent events ng inyong love story. I will be very happy to hear kung nagkita na kayo. Good luck!

Anonymous said...

Naku good luck sa inyong love story. Please give us some updates kung magkikita na kayo. Hay parang Soap Opera ha. Na excite tuloy ako. Good Luck!

joelmcvie said...

ANONYMOUS: [1] Comments moderation enabled ito. [2] Hindi ito "love story", heller. [3] And what makes you so sure that what I've written here is all true? [4] And lastly, next time please be polite and leave a name, any name, kahit pseudonym.

Anonymous said...

joel, dami pala kaming albert sa buhay mo. taga-bilar ni dong. gets?